A to Z Theme 2016

For my 2016 A to Z theme I used a meme that I ran across on the blog of Bridget Straub who first saw it on the blog of Paula Acton. This meme is a natural for me to use on my memoir blog. It's an A to Z concept and it's about me. No research and nothing complicated. I'm given twenty six questions or topics to discuss that are about me.

In April I kept my posts short and uncomplicated. In the midst of it all you might learn a few things about me that you didn't previously know.

Saturday, January 18, 2014

Coping With Unexpected Emotions When Writing Painful Memoirs

        Dealing with difficult past events can stir up painful memories as we relive them in writing a memoir.  My guest today is Lorraine Reguly.  In the following post she discusses her experience in facing the pain that can sometimes be encountered when reviving our past and offers some helpful suggestions to deal with these emotions.

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      Memoir writing is not all it’s cracked up to be. Writing about enjoyable moments is definitely fun and easy, but writing about painful memoirs and past experiences is very hard to do. I know. I’m currently doing it, and I’m having a tough time.

       Maybe you can relate, if you’ve reached a standstill in your writing or have set your memoirs aside . . . and left them there.

 Today I’m here to tell you a bit of my story and to help you learn how to deal with any pain you may be experiencing. 

       The reason I’m having such a hard time is not due to a lack of planning, but to the unexpected emotional turbulence that comes with writing about painful experiences.

        You see, I was raped when I was a virgin. I was fourteen, then. It devastated me, and my life took off in a different direction. I ended up quitting high school four times. I also had a baby when I was a teenager, and became a single mom. My son is now 23; I’m 42.

       Although I graduated from university and became a high school Math and English teacher, I partook in several other activities that were detrimental to my emotional health. I became a prostitute after being promiscuous for years. I did drugs, gambled, stole, and tried killing myself. Yes, I was a mess.

       I’ve been physically and mentally abused, and have abused myself.

       In short, I’ve been through hell.

       Judge me if you will; I don’t care. But know this: I am not a bad person.

       In fact, I have many wonderful qualities and am highly skilled.

       I’ve also had several health issues and was in an accident that nearly cost me my right leg.

       Last year, I nearly died when my appendix burst. This event served as the wake-up call I needed, and the ensuing events have changed my life in a positive, dramatic way.

       I re-connected with my son. Without going into too much detail here, I’ll simply invite you to read How Re-Uniting With My Son Impacted My Life. It’s quite the story!

      When I started my memoirs, I was hyped up and had lofty goals. My original plan was to write a bit each day. This plan didn’t work for me and so I revised it, deciding to write each week. Then that plan didn’t work, either, because when I started writing, I wrote about the negative stuff that’s happened to me and didn’t balance it with the positive.

     I ended up re-living certain things in my mind and bringing my past baggage to the surface; baggage I thought I had already dealt with. As it turns out, closure is a myth. For me, anyway.

      I also tried writing when I was inspired to do so. This worked well for a while but then I stopped getting inspired. It became easier to write about other things, or not write at all. Writing blog posts became my priority because they were less painful to handle. Coping was not an issue when I wrote about non-personal things. But I stopped reaching my readers – they wanted to hear my true stories!

      My blog theme emerged: True Tales Tuesdays and Featured Fridays. On Tuesdays, I satisfy my loyal readers (who I now consider my friends!) and on Fridays, I satisfy myself, other writers and authors, and hundreds of other people with my various topics including guest posts, author interviews, book giveaways, social media articles, and blogging tips. My blog has become more popular as a result. But it is still very little. I actually like the intimacy it offers; it is now my safe haven.

      In October, I told myself I would work more diligently toward my writing goals in November, and I did – to a point. But then I ended up accepting a blogging award in which I outed my rapist. This was the hardest thing I have had to write – ever. I had previously touched upon this topic when I wrote my blog post about Writing Is Therapeutic and Helped Me Cope With Being Raped but I was not prepared for the tumultuous uproar of panic, hatred and confusion I experienced when I found out my rapist was online. (Side note – I have only owned a laptop since January of this year.)

      Since I, like many bloggers, schedule my posts, I had a couple of weeks to wait until it was published before I finally felt emotionally better. The support that I received from my regular group of readers was amazing and helped me in more ways than I ever thought possible.

       I was not judged; I was loved. I was not hated; I was congratulated. I was not ridiculed or belittled; I was made to feel ten feet tall.

      You may think me brave for speaking out so bluntly. Yes, I was scared. I was terrified, in fact. Actually, I still am, sometimes. But what I have learned is this: I have to follow my heart. If it feels right, I do it. So should you. Write it, whatever it is that you’re holding back. Shout it from the rooftops. Make your voice heard. You won’t regret it, even if is painful and makes you cry.

      Trust me; I know. I’ve been there.

      I’m still there, but now I have a plan in place that will help me achieve my goals.

     No one said writing was easy. Writing painful memoirs is even tougher, which brings me to the tips I have for you, for when you are struggling.


 Get a support system in place. Find people you can talk to, who will support and encourage you.

 Cry. Cry. Then cry some more. It’s good for the soul.

 Allow yourself some self-pity. You’ve been through a lot. Don’t expect to be “over it” immediately. Accept that your past is a part of who you are. Don’t fight it; embrace it.

 Recognize that only you can tell your story from your point of view. No one else can. No one else has had your unique experience. No one else is YOU. You have a lot to offer even though you may not realize it.

 Love and nurture your inner child. He/she dwells within all of us and if he/she didn’t get what he/she needed as a child/teen/young adult, then give it to him/her NOW. Let your past self connect with your present self.

 Don’t isolate yourself. If you live alone, go out for a walk. Go to the mall. Take yourself out for dinner. Take in a movie. Go be around people, even if you prefer being alone.

 Get out of the house and socialize. Phone a friend. Go for coffee. For crying out loud, do something!

 Identify your emotional triggers. Write down your feelings on a piece of paper and why you think you are experiencing them.

Journal. Yes, this is more writing, but it will help you down the road. You’ll be able to look at things from a different perspective days, weeks, months and even years later. Journal-keeping is often therapeutic.

Take a day or two off. Allow yourself some space to heal. Healing takes time. You may never heal completely, and your scars will always be with you, but you can stop the bleeding.

Commiserate with me. I don’t judge and I’m always happy to meet new people, share experiences, and make new friends.

Above all else, don’t stop writing. You’ll hate yourself for it, if that’s one of your goals. For an extra boost, read Why You Should Take a Chance on Your Memoir Project and Don’t Avoid Painful Writing! If you are simply having trouble sticking to your writing goals, you may find this article helpful: Overcome Writing Failure With a Personalized Writing Plan. Did anything in this post make you have an “aha” moment? What tips make the most sense to you? Do you have tips you’d like to add? I’m anxious to hear your thoughts in the comment section, and I promise I will reply to every one…so please don’t be shy…please say “hi” to me and share your thoughts!

About the author:
picture017 (3)  Lorraine Reguly is writer, teacher, editor, poet and blogger who loves connecting with others as much as she loves writing. Join her each week on her blog, Lorraine Reguly's Life, for her True Tales Tuesdays and Featured Fridays posts.

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  1. Thank you, Arlee, for allowing me to blatantly self-promote my good name and works of writing through this post.

    The one thing that needs clarification is that I purchased my laptop in January 2013, not this year. In fact, I just recently celebrated my first year blogoversary!

    For anyone reading this, I'd love to know if my story got you thinking about your own or helped you in some way.

    Please don't be shy about speaking up. I know it's tough to do so, but I'm looking forward to your comments.

  2. Hi, Lorraine. I'm so sorry for everything you have had to deal with in your life. I'm glad that you were able to reunite with your son. Thank you for sharing your tips on how to cope with unexpected emotions. I'm sure they will help others. I wish you well on continuing the writing of your memoir.

  3. Thanks, Susanne. I am going to try working on them again soon, and I'll see what happens...

  4. Whoa. You faced the pain and I hope this has gone a long way to healing it. Did the bastard get put away? As I have gotten older, I think there should be physical pay-back to men who hurt/rape/molest.
    What pain dealt with such courage.

  5. Susan, you have no idea what my take on this is - or the crazy thoughts I used to have of making my rapist suffer. Put it this way: death would be waaay to lenient a punishment. And no, he didn't get put away because it was a "he said, she said" situation when I took him to court, AND my so-called friend who introduced us ended up siding with him and being his witness instead of mine. Some friend, huh?
    Thanks for adding a comment here; I appreciate it.

  6. I completely agree about not isolating yourself! While that's the natural thing, it's not the healthiest one! Such a great guest post, Lorraine.

  7. Aw, thanks, Christy. I somehow knew you'd be around to read this. ;)

    Isolation is probably the worst thing you can do when you're feeling blue and having problems coping. I know I hate being alone when I'm that way. Even though I'm not the best company then, it's good to be around friends.

  8. Dear Lorraine, thank you for your fierce honesty in this posting and for your determination to share your story with others and to encounter yourself in each and every story. And Lee, thank you for inviting Lorraine to add her voice to your blog. Peace.

  9. Dee, the one thing I'm known for on my blog is honesty. I believe in "keeping it real" and telling it like it is. Even when "it" is not the greatest.
    Peace to you, too.

  10. Lorraine, I know this compassionate post will help others who are struggling with the painful memories they are reliving as they write a memoir. I think you give great advice when you say to be around people even if you don't feel like it -- that's often when we need others the most. I'm also a big fan of crying pretty much whenever you want and for however long you want. So cathartic. And thanks for directing readers to my post on taking a chance on your memoir project!

  11. Sue, I'm glad you agree with my points! :)

    I really hope this does help those who're struggling.

    You're memoir coaching skills deserved to be noted, and I'm grateful for the connection we made last year. :)

    Thanks for visiting and commenting, Sue. Your support is appreciated!


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